<![CDATA[MAIYSHA KRAMER CD(CBY), CD(CHB), CLC - Mai Blog]]>Fri, 10 May 2024 23:40:38 -0700Weebly<![CDATA[For new or aspiring doulas...]]>Sat, 13 Jul 2019 01:35:20 GMThttp://maidoula.com/mai-blog/for-new-or-aspiring-doulasRemember when you went to/saw/had that birth? And they totally did/didn't/should've/never did that thing so wrong and then the birth went so wrong and then you read/saw/heard/watched that story/article/book/documentary that compounded what you learned from that birth and now you know that that should not happen and now you're all gassed up to make a difference?

Oh my love, please release that energy and here's why.

1. That was only one birth. And while you learned a lot from that one birth its still only one birth. Even if the same thing happened to your friend...it's one birth and not enough information for you to become so attached to your theory.

2. It's not your place. Clinical decisions are the decision of the clinician, aka her midwife or doctor. If you want to make clinical calls you can go become a clinician aka midwife or doctor. If it's something you wish you could do but it's not in the cards for you right now and so you're choosing to be a doula instead but hoping or pushing for the doctors and midwives to carry out your clinical calls... you're doing it wrong. 

3. It's not empowering to your client. Your client chose their provider. With few exemptions, your clients are adults and capable. If you are trying to come between her and her provider, you are not honoring her decision to work with her provider and you are not respecting her choices and you are, again, doing it wrong. 

4. And last but not least, I want you to know, to really really know, that sometimes, an epidural, forceps, an induction, demoral, AROM, a scheduled c/s, pitocin, cytotec, vacuum, episiotomy, continuous monitoring, an emergency c/s, a version, a refusal to catch a breech, and on and on...really is the best decision, or at least a good one, for what's happening in the moment in a particular birth. And often you cannot see that during until hindsight reveals the whole story. So if you are objecting to the thing in the moment because you saw the thing go so bad before, you're doing it wrong.  What you will learn once you have gained a lot of experience is that you truly never know in a birth and so a grand amount of grace and humbleness is required to effectively support a labor and birth and work effectively with her care team.

Wishing everyone peace, love and beautiful supportive non-judgmental birthing!

Love,
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<![CDATA[Where did the blog go? Social media!]]>Fri, 14 Jun 2019 12:16:32 GMThttp://maidoula.com/mai-blog/where-did-the-blog-go-social-mediaIts been a few years since I posted here and I realized it might look like I stopped but really I just moved to social media for blogging. You can find me at Instagram and Facebook as Mai Doula Maiysha Kramer Campbell and Mai_Doula_Maiysha on Instagram for recent content. I use both Kramer and Campbell btw, Kramer is actually my "maiden" name, Campbell the married name which I know most people assume the opposite. ]]><![CDATA[Insurance and paying for doula care]]>Wed, 28 Oct 2015 20:39:47 GMThttp://maidoula.com/mai-blog/insurance-and-paying-for-doula-careWelcome back. Many people ask me about insurance coverage for doula care. Right now insurance does not cover doula care. The closest we have gotten is Flex/FSA reimbursement which does have a good track record for covering doula care. 

The new health care  laws are saying that insurance covers lactation, but we have not been able to make that work. Similar to when the laws said they would cover breast pumps, it was a year at least before the conduits were created for it to actually happen.  I have worked with many moms and even been on the phone with insurance companies. The catch is that in order to bill insurance, you need a code and we do not have one to use. Lactation professionals were using some codes for a while and people were getting reimbursed but then we found out, and I found out direct from my certifying body, Healthy Children Project, that we cannot use codes as we are not clinicians. You may hear of a friend that did it. That is either an old story, in a different location, or the lactation person was affiliated with a medical practice such as a pediatricians office and can then bill through that. I do not have any such affiliations so I cannot offer you a receipt with any billing codes on it.

Basically, if you are seeking doula and/or lactation support, you can and should expect this to be an out of pocket expense. I can provide an official receipt for services if you request and you can submit it to your insurance, and I encourage you to do so. But know that it will probably be denied for reimbursement. 

So what if you want this care and cannot afford it? There are a few options here. Some people just make it happen. They save up, make other sacrifices, and/or ask friends and family for help. I've had clients get help affording doula care by putting it on their baby registry. I know I'm biased but $1000 towards doula care is way more useful than $1000 towards a stroller. Another option is to go with a less expensive doula. There are great choices as the NYC Doula Collective, of which I am a member and a mentor. There is also Doula Match and www.freeandlowcostdoulas.com. Yes, a less expensive doula is less experienced, but that does not mean you cannot find a great connection. While there is definite advantage to having a more experienced doula, there is also value in not adding a stress to your life during this time by committing to pay more than is comfortable for your family. 

So how much is doula care? In NYC right now it ranges from free to $10,000. Newer doulas charge around $500-1000, and the more experienced doulas like myself charge around $2500-4000. You can get a sense of average doula fees here at the NYC Doula Collective where we price according to competitive going rates and experience:
http://nycdoulacollective.com/labor-support/.  If you look around their website you will also find me on their tier 6 doulas page. Once you are sure of your price range, I suggest seeking doulas in your range and not meeting doulas out of range in case you find you really love them and put yourself in a pickle. 

Choosing the right doula for your growing family is an important decision. I hope this information can be helpful with your selection process. 

Lots of love, 
Maiysha

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<![CDATA[Preparing for Birth]]>Tue, 07 Jul 2015 16:51:37 GMThttp://maidoula.com/mai-blog/preparing-for-birth
No matter what you read or study or hear, there is no way to really explain the emotional intensity of the whole thing. Then the added pain, fatigue, confusion and emotional "come to Jesus" I call it. Birth really serves you your own butt on on a platter. There is no where to run, no where to hide, no space for denying anything that is coming up, it's coming up. It's also an emotional invitation, to really go deeper. To experience life on a deeper level. On a real. I so love this work for it's realness. It also invites me to go deeper and get closer to the essence of all things human and nature and God and creation. 

If we could do the birth without any fears for the baby and mom, it would be so much easier. So the marathon parallel too many people draw, again, it's nothing like a marathon. In a marathon, you are not worried about your life and/or the life of your unborn mystery faced child. That little detail my friends, is what makes this so much harder. 

Again, an invitation. An invitation to trust. An invitation to look God in the face and not try to control or dictate, but surrender. And in that, you feel that infinite power and it can be so scary. I remember I compared my contractions to those crazy rolling summer thunderstorms. Those storms really remind you who is in charge here. When I lived down by the beach I used to go to the end of our block during those summer storms that shake the earth and stand on the rocks in thunderstorms and just experience just how crazy powerful mother nature is. Strong, scary, both life giving and powerfully destructive at times too. She gives and she takes away. She tornadoes, and hurricanes, and she thunders and lightening. But it's not a punishment, it just is. It's just the waves, and you have to ride them, you cannot conquer them, we are a part of this cycle, not the boss. She's also sunshine on beaches, and flowers that bloom exquisite colors, and the animals, the amazing patterns of fur, feathers and scales, and the seasons, and the awesome wisdom in a newborn's eyes. She is all things and we know that. 

The rain will make you wet, the waves will sweep you away if they want to, the sun will make your skin feel hot, and your birth will take you where it will. Smell the amazing perfume of the flowers, look up into that rain bravely with your bare face and enjoy the magic that is nature, all around you, and inside your body as well. 

And we are human. So we make houses, and we evacuate before hurricanes, and go indoors during storms, and put on sunscreen to avoid sun damage our skin. And we give birth with hospitals and technology. That's all fine and good, and we must always remember that we are still part of this divine, intense, strong and powerful natural world and existence. 

With love,
Maiysha
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<![CDATA[Newborn Care Tips!]]>Fri, 06 Mar 2015 14:39:44 GMThttp://maidoula.com/mai-blog/newborn-care-tipsThat tiny little body, that big heavy head, this precious little package you are instantly responsible for and yet frighteningly you have zero experience taking care of a new baby and you are terrified! Take comfort new parents, I have compiled a simple list and explanation of all you need to know to take the best care of your new little ones. 

For the mother of the baby: 
Lie in bed and let everyone take care of you. 
If breastfeeding is difficult and/or painful. DO NOT pick up that breastfeeding book, call me. You do not have to tough out breast/nipple pain. Pain with breastfeeding is a sign that your baby probably isn't getting enough milk. There are solutions. Call me. I'll come over and help you.
Know you will cry. It may be a rational or irrational reason to cry. All those reasons are rational.
Know that you are doing an amazing job and while you might fear others are judging you, your baby I assure you is not. Not yet at least. You have 16 years for that part to happen. 
You have been with this baby this baby's whole life, and now with this baby 24/7 still. Know that you will quickly become the expert on your baby. If you hear some advice that makes no sense to you, you are most likely right and that advice probably does not apply to you.

For the support persons of the birth mother of the baby:
Make sure mom can stay in bed and rest.
Don't let a lot of people come over. 
If she has to put a shirt on for them to come over, they can't come over.
Take care of the laundry. Do it yourself, drop it off, or have someone else do it. 
Wash the dishes. Yourself, machine, delegate, whatever. Just please get it done before she sees them.
Serve her amazing home cooked meals every day. Again, yourself, delegate, whatever. 
Assume she is thirsty, don't wait until she asks you for a drink. Bring it. 
If mom is crying , comfort her and listen. Never judge her reasons for crying. 
Compliment the mom. But he honest. If you cannot find anything to compliment her on, pay closer attention. I'm sure she's doing an amazing job. 
Clean the entire house. Again, you can do it, or get someone else to do it. 
If breastfeeding is difficult, share her stressed out concern and get help immediately. This is so important to her. 
Be sure and take care of yourself too! You also just had a baby. Be kind and gentle with yourself. Eat well, shower, and nap when you can. 

For the baby:
Change their diaper often.
Feed them only breastmilk and/or formula. If formula, avoid soy formula unless prescribed by your pediatrician. 
Feed them a lot. If exclusively breastfeeding, you will feed them with a frequency that will make you text me and ask if its normal because its so frequent it just seems crazy. Yes, I know. Your baby was used to constant feeding in utero. Their tummy is tiny, breastmilk digests quickly. Rinse and repeat. 
Bathe them occasionally after their umbilical stump falls off.  Before it falls off, make sure you fold the diaper down to not cover it. It needs to air out or it will smell really bad.
Keep them warm, but naked with just a diaper on mom or other loved one with a blanket on their back is super for skin to skin. Continue skin to skin way after you come home from the hospital. 
Sleep when they sleep. 
If they are fed well, they will sleep better so focus on getting the feeding together and the rest of your life will be manageable. 
You don't need most of those products. If you want to spend a lot of money, buy a washer dryer. And a Nose Frida. 

Enjoy!

Note: Lactation support is included in my birth doula package. Lactation consults are available to all new parents if I was your birth doula or not. Home visits are $225 for up to 3 hours. Sliding scale is available if you come to my home in Harlem. For details, please email: maiysha.campbell@gmail.com.
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<![CDATA[Breastfeeding support!!]]>Sat, 17 Jan 2015 14:18:20 GMThttp://maidoula.com/mai-blog/breastfeeding-supportI'm really good with the breastfeeding support. Just so you know. And if you choose not to breastfeed, know that I do have clients who choose formula and I support them in how to best formula feed. FYI that needs to be done correctly as well and many times its done incorrectly. 

Experience! I can't get everyone breastfeeding and/or breastfeeding exclusively, I can never promise that. But with hard work and dedication, I can get nearly everyone. I've lost count on the moms I have been able to get to their nursing goals, its at least 200-something. I've had so few moms who wanted to breastfeed exclusively and were not able to. But they still breastfed and then supplemented when needed. When exclusive breastfeeding isn't going to work, its important to not let dogma overshadow what's best for the baby. Yes breastfeeding is best, but there are instances where supplementing is needed to keep a baby properly nourished. Just like we shouldn't avoid a cesarean over some political dogma when it's a life saving procedure, we shouldn't avoid supplementation in the same way either. We also need to not feel guilty about our choices. In both instances, women need access to choices and information so that they can make the best decisions for the health of their babies and themselves. 

My lactation support skills come from a serendipitous unfolding. I took my CLC, Certified Lactation Course and certification in 2012. But I attempted to do it in 2011 and missed it for a birth. Its a 45 hour course but if you miss even one day, you cannot take it. So I was really bummed and then I borrowed the textbook from a friend who did take it. I studied it with all her notes in the margins. Then a year later, in 2012 I took time off of being on-call to make sure I would make it, and I took the class myself. Having already poured over the book for a year, it was a much deeper learning then I see most people getting from the class. 45 hours of breastfeeding information being thrown at you over 5 days is really hard to absorb. But for me, it was over a year. 

Next, yes I breastfed too. And I had many of the breastfeeding problems. But besides pain, engorgement, mastitis, supply issues, getting pregnant again, and nursing a second, I also experienced the emotional side of breastfeeding. Those very sensitive first few days home with a new baby. The way your emotions feel like they will crack open and you are just swallowed in tears. The fragility and fear. The amazing and wonderful yet terrifying responsibility of keeping this baby alive. Plus, that was a long time ago for me. I started nursing in 1998. And while I didn't become a doula until 2010, after I figured out my own breastfeeding, I was helping my friends as well, and going to breastfeeding support groups, talking and listening to women, and really building my knowledge.

Next, farm life. I'm a city girl, as my mom said the first time she put me on grass as a baby I cried. But then she quickly remedied that and gave me lots of nature exposure. In summer camp I learned how to milk goats, which also came in handy when my aunt moved upstate many years ago and started getting sheep and cows. There are differences to sheep, goats and cows, but the science of lactation is the same. They get engorgement, mastitis, and emotional issues to. When I house sit for her I milk the animals. I learned a lot from this and I get it must have been more intuitive to breastfeed back in the day if you grew up milking other mammals. I was always good at manual expression, even with my first baby. I found it easier than pumping, which I never hear from anyone else. Now when my aunt has had trouble with her animals and lactation, she sometimes calls me to consult because soooo much overlaps, lactating domesticated mammals have so much in common. 

OK, that was fun, I have to run, I have two moms needing breastfeeding support right now!


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<![CDATA[My Practice]]>Wed, 07 Jan 2015 15:14:57 GMThttp://maidoula.com/mai-blog/my-practiceMy birth and breastfeeding support practice is multifaceted. I have my private practice, I'm a member of the NYC Doula collective, I work with the By My Side Doula Program, and I'm a Birth Assistant for Shar LePorte and Carol Bues of Midwifery Care NYC. 

Most of you will find me through my private practice. These are my clients that find me directly through my website, referrals from their friends and family who are my past clients, and from their doctors, midwives, childbirth educators, acupuncturists, etc. This is the mainstay of how clients find me. Most of my clients are delivering at hospitals and birthing centers. About 1 in 10 delivers at home. 

Next is the NYC Doula Collective. In the collective I'm the membership director and a mentor. In this group we have provided an amazing structure of mentoring and tiers. There are 5 tiers and doulas are in tiers based on their experience. Tiers 4 & 5 are called the mentor collective, and doulas from tiers 1-3 choose one doula from the mentor collective to be their mentor. It's an amazing opportunity for new doulas to have support of a mentor and a doula community as they build their practice and learn how to be the best doula they can. I joined the collective about 4 years ago and worked my way up from tier 1 to 5. I now have 6 doulas that I am officially mentoring. I also have a few more doulas in the community who have sought me out as an unofficial mentor. I love mentoring, it's an opportunity for me to learn and engage in birth work at a deeper level. 

The By My Side doula program is a grant funded program through the Department of Health and Healthy Start Brooklyn. Moms in this program are very low income and very high risk. The clients do not pay to participate and the program pays the doulas. The "high risk" I'm referring to is the fact that they live in certain zip codes in Brooklyn. Why? Because in these zip codes in Crown Heights, East New York, Bushwick, Bed-Stuy and Flatbush, the maternal mortality rate for African American non-Hispanic women is drastically higher than the rest of the city. I only take a few clients from the program at a time. It is the most challenging part of my doula practice. Many of my clients through the program are homeless and often facing the biggest challenges. I have to really dig deep to figure out how to best help them. I love being able to make a difference here with these communities that really need it. Here's a link to an article written up about our program: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/09/12/community-doulas-changing-how-low-income-moms-give-birth_n_3894995.html

Then last but not least is I'm a birth assistant for Shar LaPorte and Carol Bues homebirth practice Midwifery Care NYC. Years ago I was also an assistant for home birth midwife Marcy Tardio. Being a birth assistant at homebirths is a wonderful opportunity for me to advance my birth skills and knowledge. As a birth assistant I am working for the midwives in a clinical role as opposed to the emotional support for the client that a doula provides. As an assistant I am responsible for a completely different set of responsibilities. No I don't want to be a midwife, but I really enjoy working along side them and getting to do what I call "clinical light."  The midwives have three birth assistants, we work on shifts so that we can each prioritize our private clients and other work. This work is on another level of understanding and experience of birth. There is so much to learn about births and experience is the best teacher. I want to see it at every angle and keep learning!

I started doing breastfeeding support in 1999 shortly after I had my first baby in 1998. It was a natural extension of being in the breastfeeding community myself. When I became a professional doula in 2010, I learned that I have a very intuitive and natural ability to support breastfeeding very well. I've since added my CLC to my name and I continue to study breastfeeding and postpartum and improve on my skills. I've been able to help so many women breastfeed and I'm often referred to women who were not my birth clients to come and help them breastfeed successfully. I hear from clients weeks and months after their births to continue the support and follow up with their breastfeeding as well. I love doing breastfeeding support. It's so amazing to help a new mom go from "I can't do this" to texting me her breastfeeding photos with pride!]]>
<![CDATA[That which makes us stronger]]>Mon, 22 Dec 2014 20:37:22 GMThttp://maidoula.com/mai-blog/that-which-makes-us-stronger"The most important thing you bring to the birth is yourself."

I wanted to be a professional doula but I sat on the idea for about 10 years before I really pursued it full-time. One obstacle was having two small children. I went to a couple of births when they were little and it was really challenging being on-call with little ones. But that wasn't the only reason I wasn't ready to do it.

My other challenge was that I didn't know if I could do it with a disability. Stuttering may not seem like a disability, and its a tricky one because you can't always see it and most people might not see it as a disability. But look it up, it is. 

So of course my stutter gets more challenging when I'm tired, rushed and on W's, M's and D's.  Just perfect when I want to work with women and mothers as a doula! Oy, does God have a sense of humor or what?! So I thought that I just couldn't do it. That I would just keep this passion quiet and accept where I was. I had a great job in an office. I did stutter there but its no rush so no worries. I'm not embarrassed by it at all, it just seemed like too much to have in the high stress situation of birth where communication is key. And I did work in communications in my office job anyway, how ironic.  

Then comes summer 2010, and my aunt Marcy, who is a homebirth midwife, calls me up and invites me to go to births with her as her assistant. I was hooked immediately and I knew I had to face this head on to get myself where I wanted and needed to be. I started researching speech therapy. I had had it for 8 years as a kid, it helped somewhat, well, a lot. I can get by now. But I felt it was time to polish it up and get rid of the these last bits so that I could be a doula. I found some options but they were all really really expensive. So then, after seeing so many homebirths, I considered maybe I can find home-speech therapy.

I looked up a bunch of stuttering self-help books in-between my studies for my doula certification I had started working on at the same time. It was hard to do so much reading but I really wanted it done in time. I found this really great book that had me laughing to tears. It described the stutter's mind so well, it was me, it was hilarious and so true. It explained that stutters see words as three dimensional objects. And I'm like, They ARE three dimensional objects! And then the stutter tries to push them out and then they activate the pushing reflex with closes the throat and that does not work because words are not 3-D objects. Wow, a tie in to pushing that I was just reading about from my doula certification reading list as well. The book explains the anatomy of pushing in great detail to try and explain the physiology of stuttering and pushing out words, so that we don't do that. It was great to read an in-depth analysis of pushing, both for speaking and for births. The book also has exercises to remember to not push, to do the opposite of push. But the real work is to rework the mind to really believe that words are not 3-D. Words are only a combo of breathing and mouth movements. This is really hard for me to accept, while I know it intellectually, I never realized before reading this that I was treating words as three dimensional. So all these exercises are very helpful, when I do them, like exercises always are.

The other important piece of advice this book gave me was that it said, don't wait to do what you want to do waiting for your stutter to go away first. Do what you want to do, work on it, stutter if you have to, but don't shy away from life. And it was such an ah-ha moment. Yes, I'm just going to have to jump in, imperfections and all. Now.

Its true for so many things in life. You don't have to wait for perfect. You just have to jump into life, challenges and all, and live. And I bring this to your birth. Yes as a mother who gave birth twice, and a doula who has been to many births, but also as a person with a life-long struggle of finding what I needed to have the life I wanted to have. I bring an in-depth understanding of feeling blocked. Stuck. Of feeling judged. So like labor! Of not believing or knowing that the tools to get to where you want to be are within you. I have learned how to come from having a disability, and redefining it into a different ability. I have to work with what I have and make it work well. A MacGyver intuition and skill set has actually been a great asset to my doula work.

So if you are feeling weak, or scared, intimidated, or maybe pure confidence coming into this birth, I'm here to support you. I'm here to help you find what you need inside yourself and from the support team around you. I have your back, front and sides and I am here to support you. And you don't need any prerequisites. You can find yourself amidst those contractions and may think you're not strong enough or the right type or whatever. But you are. If you are a woman, you are the right type to deliver a baby. That's all you need. You. 

So now coming up on my 160th birth, I'm feeling so very grateful. I know I have helped so many women and their families, and shared and received soooo much love its amazing. I am living the life I always wanted. And you know what, some days I still stutter. And that's ok. I still talk to the doctors, the midwives, the nurses, and of course my clients and their families and its just not a problem. It's me. And its OK, we're all OK, just the way we are. 

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Also on this note, I love this piece from Ted Talks from a differently abled woman, and I really like that term, differently abled. I find her inspiring and I like to remind myself if I ever start feeling too challenged to look for the advantages instead of the disadvantages of our lives.  
http://www.ted.com/talks/aimee_mullins_prosthetic_aesthetics


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<![CDATA[Why this doula isn't going to midwifery school, or moving to Brooklyn]]>Fri, 21 Nov 2014 23:39:39 GMThttp://maidoula.com/mai-blog/why-this-doula-isnt-going-to-midwifery-school-or-moving-to-brooklynI'm a NYC native and I was a Brooklyn teen. We went to Coney Island every day all summer to get numbers and dance to the house music the DJs hotwired to the street lights. We leaned on parked cars and watched the boys do tricks on their bikes. High school we went to Dewey, Midwood, Erasmus, Lincoln, Stuyvesant and St. Ann's. We had school shootings 6 years before Columbine that never made national news. We spent an hour prepping doing hair and makeup before our 2 minute walk to the corner bodega. I went to college in the SUNY system, and when we went to Albany to protest the tuition hikes and they called out all the cities, when Brooklyn was called I joined the loudest "Brooklyn's in the House!" roar the state has ever seen. Then cafe poetry slams, I remember my older friends buying apartments in Fort Greene when it was still affordable as we watched the Biggie Smalls funeral procession go by when I worked at Moshood. My Brooklyn is gone and found only in memories and fb threads of old NY.  I've now lived in 4 of the 5 boroughs, I've moved a total 32 times, across the country and in and out of the states, and I'm back in the Borough of Manhattan where I was born. Its convenient and gives me easy access to clients all over the city. Besides, there's like 1000+ doulas in Brooklyn already! 

When I was 15 and said I wanted to be a midwife, I was envisioning what most people envision. The wise woman who comforts, protects and guides the laboring woman. The one who is wrapped around her, or holding her hands, swaying with her, looking deep into her eyes, whispering knowing words in her ear, and guiding her loving to the other shore. And as much as I love midwives, this is not what the modern midwife is. I think most of us have the mythological fantasy of what a midwife is, but it's not quite accurate. A modern midwife in NYC is usually a CNM, certified nurse midwife, CM certified midwife, or CPM, certified practical midwife. They go to medical school after their undergrad, popular programs here are at NYU, Columbia, Yale and SUNY Downstate. Its a very intense training that prepares you for midwifery in hospitals, birthing centers and homes. Yes, midwives work in hospitals, they can be your primary care provider even if you want a hospital birth, even if you want an epidural, but I digress. Midwives today are great, and they are medically trained, which is also great. They often provide a more personable bedside manner, but they do not do what many of us fantasize they do. 

In a hospital setting, most midwives work on shifts as part of a group practice. Just like OBs. They will meet you at the hospital and most likely have other patients in labor at the same time. They will not stay in the room with you while you labor, they come in periodically to assess your labor and make any decisions needed. The nurses will be responsible for your vitals and administering most meds if indicated. They will be more present at the end for catching the baby, again, just like an OB. They do have better outcomes statistically and you do have a better chance of a non-medicated vaginal birth with a midwife, but they're not doing what we often fantasize they do. 

I learned that the hard way when I didn't have a doula for my first birth. I thought that because I went with a midwifery practice, I didn't need a doula. I thought that the midwife would be draped around me, supporting me, helping me ride those crazy contractions. Nope. She just caught the baby. I learned later that she did nothing wrong. I learned that what I really needed was  a doula! For my second birth when I had my doula I got all the hands on, and the support, and the words, and the touch and massage and calming presence....yes I realized, I want to be a doula! ...not a midwife. That was what I was envisioning for over 20 years since high school but I didn't know the word, nor did I know such a profession existed! 

Signed, 
Your NYC Doula
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<![CDATA[At Peace]]>Wed, 15 Oct 2014 15:47:17 GMThttp://maidoula.com/mai-blog/at-peaceI had attended my first birth as a doula in 2002 but it wasn't until 201o that I made the leap to doula work full-time. It took a lot of soul searching and angst during the decision making process. I knew I wanted to do this, but was I really going to leave my very good and safe job in corporate world for the crazy world of self-employment in birth world? 

The first step was I cut my office hours down to part-time and then I was working as a birth assistant for homebirth midwife Marcy Tardio. The switch to birth world was becoming more and more obvious and real. Finally I set a three month date and let my employer know. It was a little teary at the office because I worked with really great people but I knew I had to follow my heart. Those last few months at the office I imagined what it would be like when I finally walked out that last day. Would I be exuberant? Would I be screaming for joy in the streets? Would I throw a party? But when it finally came, I just felt an overwhelming sense of peace. Yes, this is right. And I didn't need to do anything flashy about it. It was all I needed. I walked home quietly feeling so completely and utterly happy and at peace. And then when my first month out of the office job was booked solid, I did cry with joy.

Recently at a beautiful hospital birth, the mom had a beautiful birth pause after the birth of her baby. The birth pause is when you opt to not have the baby thrust in your arms at birth. Instead her midwife held the baby between her legs for a moment and waited for her to request the baby. The mother closed her eyes for a moment, it was four hours of pushing, she needed a moment. And then with complete complete calm, she reached down and took her baby, silently. It was an exquisitely beautiful quiet moment. She told me later that she wasn't excited, but more of an of course its you (her baby), of course! A Yes this is right, this is my baby and I'm not surprised, because she IS my daughter, always was and always will be. 

Sometimes the most amazing moments in our lives aren't fireworks. Sometimes they are silent. Its when we  know we are in alignment with our divine purpose and place in life. Its a beautiful place of peace. ]]>